March 16, 2012

Five Minute Friday #4



Linking up with The Gypsy Mama:

"Around here we write for five minutes flat on Fridays. We write because we love words and the relief it is to just write them without worrying if they're just right or not. So we take five minutes on Friday and write like we used to finger paint. For joy in the process. No matter how messy the result. Write for five minutes flat - no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking."

Today's topic: BRAVE

GO.



For me, brave isn't running my first half marathon. It's not joining the choir, even though I am convinced I still can't sing. It's not giving birth twice - once naturally and once via c-section.


It's not moving cross-country on an impulse decision and never moving back. It's not dealing with postpartum depression and accepting medication for it. It's not quitting my job with no safety net. It's not going to 4 countries on 6 different mission trips.


Brave isn't marrying the man of my dreams exactly one year after our first date. It's not moving my family to another state without a home, and moving six times in a year and a half. It's not being willing to speak in front of people even though it makes me nauseous. 


All these things are just changes. And changes happen when life happens. Walking into those things isn't bravery, it's just obedience.


For me, true bravery is this: standing vulnerably in front of the mirror and really seeing myself. Not through my own eyes -- with all my flaws, and problems and insecurities -- but rather forcing myself to look through the eyes of Jesus and seeing who He sees. 


That's bravery to me, because I still can't do it. I'm still too fearful to do that. The day I'm able to do it with complete and utter acceptance of what I see is the day I'll feel truly brave.


STOP.

4 comments:

Jessica said...

What a beautiful picture. I too struggle with finding joy in the person that God created. The inside of me is ok.......but the outside with its lumps and scars, makes me feel insignificant.

Thank you for your honest picture of the bondage we as women, face!

Blessings to you, I hope your weekend is fantastic!

Jessica

Jacque Watkins said...

And Yes, that is what He wants us to accept...to see ourselves through His eyes. To believe we are loved and forgiven and beautiful, and no matter what, He's longing to use our scars and flaws and vulnerabilites to help others AND in the process to help us heal ourselves, so that ultimately He is glorified in us. For it to be all His doing in the making of our hearts whole and beautiful! May we all look in that mirror and boldly declare who we really are...and believe it! Blessings to you!

Stephanie Guest said...

I don't know if I will be able to do that until Jesus returns, but I strive to every day.

Denise J. Hughes said...

It "isn't bravery, it's just obedience." I love that.

When Christ hung on the cross, His bravery came from His complete obedience to His Father's plan.

And, yes, to stand in front of the mirror and see ourselves the way Jesus sees us is a beautiful bravery indeed.

Beautiful post. I'm so glad to have found your blog through 5MF.

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